3 Day’s smoke free, woo hoo!
I’m celebrating with a single beer tonight, no more than that. Mainly because I don’t trust myself with more than one, LOL. I think I deserve a beer though, it’s been tough, stressful, and pretty much a miserable 3 days. I am looking to the future though, and that keeps me course with a good compass heading.
Surprisingly enough, at least to me, everyone that is pulling for me is helping a lot. I know it sounds strange, but the fact that if I let myself down, I would then have to fess up to all of you, is one of the factors that keeps me on track. Every time I tried to stop before, I never announced it to anyone but close family. This time I announced my intention to quit smoking to the entire world. What a difference that makes, some real incentive to keep at it.
Today was pretty mild, but I seemed to have more nervous energy. There was also a few more rationalizations for cheating. I didn’t though, I stuck to my guns, and I am going to keep sticking with it. I can’t let myself cheat, not even a little. I think I would be more embarrassed about that, if it happened, than anything else I can think of right now.
I can’t wait for the mental aspect of this to end. I know I can beat the physical, all I have to do is keep busy. What really bothers me more than anything right now, is my scattered mental state. I know I’ll get my head back on straight before too long, but dam, it is so hard, not being able to concentrate for more than 10 minutes.
After this week, I might just start joining Kel, and getting up an hour early to get some exercise in. It’s been a long time since I had a good run, let alone did any calisthenics and stretches. I keep thinking that it would help me get through the rest of the process too. For now though, I can only go day by day, and keep faith in myself.
Thanks to everyone for the support, I can’t believe how many people are pulling for me!